The year so far...

[tj_ray]

With the year almost half over, I thought I'd do a little self eval and see what I've gotten done so far. I never make new year's resolutions in January, but I do try to think of things I want to do or how I want to try and be a better person. This year I decided that I wanted to be a better boyfriend and I wanted to volunteer at the local homeless shelter. I managed to do one of those things. I do whatever maintenance needs to be done for the shelter and even help them with some of the cooking when I have the chance. I really love it. Everyone who works there is pretty laid back and a lot of fun to hang out with. There's only one guy - Ted - who's a real asshole, but I'm still trying to get along with him. Luckily, he's only there a couple of times a week, so when I get called out to help, most of the time I don't see him. But I sure do hear a lot of stories about him. That's stuff for another entry, though.

So, I've been doing well with one of my new year's "resolutions." As for the other one... Technically, it's not my fault that I haven't been a better boyfriend. I was dumped a few weeks ago and it was because she suddenly decided that she didn't like the fact I was into guys. She knew that when we started dating - even told me it kind of turned her on - but it just happened to be an issue when she met a good friend of mine who moved back to town. It wasn't an issue because she thought there was anything up with me and Jet. It was an issue because she wanted to hook up with him. But the excuse she gave me was that she wasn't really all that comfortable with me liking guys. It hurts that she's lying about that, but I've got to move on. I just wish I hadn't lost a good friend out of the whole thing, too. And I get to see them around town all the time together. Not fun.

The good news? I still have the rest of the year to look forward to. I'm excited about getting to know the new people I've been meeting. I really do believe that things happen for a reason, so I'll try to look on the bright side of being dumped for a friend.

Comments

[shyboy86.livejournal.com]

wait a minute...she's fucking your friend and you still have to live in the same town with them?

[tj-ray.livejournal.com]

Well, it's my home now and it's their home, too. What else can happen?

[shyboy86.livejournal.com]

you could move. or they could be cool about it

I don't get girls. the last one i was with broke my heart and if i wasn't married i couldn't e ven think about being with one again

[tj-ray.livejournal.com]

You know, I figure it happened and I just have to accept it or be miserable. I can't let anyone else control how I feel.

And it's not every girl out there, man. You've got good and bad everywhere, so it's just a matter of trying to find the good and focus on that. Honestly, Tay isn't a bad person. She just needed something that wasn't me. Once I completely accept that, it's all good.

[shyboy86.livejournal.com]

maybe i need to get stoned more

[tj-ray.livejournal.com]

No lie, it definitely helps. Kill enough brain cells and you don't care about much of anything.

[shyboy86.livejournal.com]

*giggles* can you hook me up?

[tj-ray.livejournal.com]

Sure, man, no problem. Next time I see you.

[shyboy86.livejournal.com]

excellent