tj_ray: (bigger smile)
Hold on, man. We don't go anywhere with "scary," "spooky," "haunted," or "forbidden" in the title.

Oh my god, I LOVE Scooby Doo!! I can't remember a time I haven't caught it on TV. Shaggy is totally someone I'd hang out with; Scooby, too. Fred, not so much, He seems like a nice guy and everything but kind of lame. Velma is really smart and I like that in a girl, but she's got to stop wearing that sweater, man. Fix her hair a little different and put on a little mini dress and I bet she'd be cute. Daphne just annoys me. And what do they put in Scooby Snacks!!?? LOL I bet they just taste good because those two are always high. I think I'd fit in pretty good with them. I'm not really scared of too much, so I could be like a brave Shaggy. I mean, there's plenty about real life that scares me, but when it comes to ghosts and shit like that, I'm fine.

Man...I am baked right now...
tj_ray: (little smile)
- Pet sitter
- Landscaper (sounds better than mower of lawns and puller of weeds)
- Grocery store stocker
- Car wash attendant
- Record store clerk
- Musician (only one paying gig but it counts)
- Construction worker
tj_ray: (Default)
"Hey, man, your uncle's gone. Let's cut out early."

TJ looked at his friend. "But we're not done."

"So? We've done enough."

TJ frowned and shook his head. "Uncle Jim wanted us to get this section done before we went home. He just told us that."

"It's not like he'll fire you," Jet said, grinning and pulling out a joint. "C'mon, you know he's not gonna care."

"Maybe and maybe not, but I care." TJ shrugged. "You can go home and I'll just finish without you."

Jet scowled and pocketed the joint again. "Wuss."

TJ chuckled. "Get back to work."


Aug. 13th, 2011 11:33 pm
tj_ray: (close up smile)
"Where's Uncle Jim?" TJ asked his aunt. "I want to run something by him."

"He's out back in the hammock, sweetie."

"'Kay, thanks," TJ said, heading into the backyard.

When he got back there, he saw that his uncle had fallen asleep with a beer in his hand and a car magazine resting on his chest. Chuckling, TJ carefully removed both items so neither of them would fall. His uncle worked hard all week, so getting to be home on the weekend to relax in the yard was the least he deserved. The question he had for him could wait.
tj_ray: (bigger smile)
TJ looked through the stuff in the backseat. "Did you remember the tent?"

Jet looked put out. "What kind of question is that? I've been camping before. Why would I forget something as basic as the tent?"

"I'm just saying, I don't want to get out there and have to freeze my ass off all night because you forgot it."

"I didn't forget it."

"Then why don't I see it?"

"It's back there," Jet insisted.

"Okay, fine."

After a few moments of silence, Jet cursed and turned the car around.

"What is it?" TJ asked.

"I forgot the fucking tent."


Aug. 13th, 2011 03:28 pm
tj_ray: (hair)
TJ loved the park, especially when he could lie down in the shade and catch a nap. A fly tickled his nose and he brushed it away.

"Damn it," he muttered when the fly landed on his cheek. He opened his eyes and saw his ex-girlfriend, a blade of grass in her hand.

"Hey, Teej."

"You were doing that?"

She nodded.

"What do you want?"

"I wanted to say hey."

"Fine. You did. Go."

"You still mad?"



"Just leave," he snapped.

Nodding, she slowly got to her feet and walked away.

"Bitch," he muttered, closing his eyes again.


Aug. 13th, 2011 01:20 pm
tj_ray: (close up smile)
TJ finished laying the last tile in place and rocked back on his heels with a smile on his face. It looked great.

"You decide if you're coming by tonight?" his friend Jet asked him.

TJ nodded and got to his feet. "Yeah, I guess I will. Can't avoid her forever, right? Can I bring over anything?"

"A bag of ice."

"You got it."

"And maybe some chips and dip. And weed, if you've got it."

TJ looked at his friend. "Man, why don't we just have the party at my place?"

Jet laughed. "I was hoping you'd say that."


Aug. 13th, 2011 02:55 am
tj_ray: (Default)
still alive. miss u. dont wanna talk tho.

TJ grinned when he saw the text from Shy. He'd been worried about his friend but knew he must be okay if he was texting. He opened his phone and replied.

Miss you too. Don't worry about talking. You okay?

After a few moments he received another message.

not rly. wish i was dead.

A chill went through TJ's body when he read it.

No you don't.

A few minutes passed, and just when TJ was ready to call Shy he received

come see me

TJ grabbed his keys.

On my way.


Aug. 13th, 2011 01:45 am
tj_ray: (squinting)
TJ wiped his brow. The sun was merciless today. If he hadn't promised his uncle he'd mow the lawn, he would've spent the day at the movie theater basking in air-conditioned comfort. But a promise was a promise. Besides, he was almost done. As he pushed the mower, he thought about the day he'd get his own place and have someone else mow the lawn. Hell, he'd hire someone to clean up after him so he wouldn't even have to make his bed. While thoughts of living the good life filled his brain, he failed to notice the sprinkler head.


Aug. 8th, 2011 05:13 am
tj_ray: (Default)
"Shy, you okay?" TJ asked, looking in on his friend. He'd put Shy in one of the spare rooms so he'd have some privacy, but he thought he'd heard crying.

"No," came a small voice from the bed.

Walking into the room, TJ took a seat on the edge of the bed. "Wanna talk?"

Shy shook his head and reached for TJ's hand. "Can you just stay with me, tonight? It's weird, but I'm feeling scared. Is that dumb?"

"No, man, I don't think it's dumb," TJ said softly. "And I'll stay with you for as long as you want."
tj_ray: (little smile)
FIVE things you love
flaming hot Cheetos

FOUR places you love
Six Flags
my bedroom

THREE people you love
Uncle Jim
Aunt Stephie
Clint Eastwood

TWO things you no longer love
pop rocks

ONE thing you hate


Jul. 25th, 2011 09:09 pm
tj_ray: (black and white)
TJ rolls over with a sigh and opens his eyes. He can hear Shy talking to someone in the living room and figures he must be on his phone. He wonders if he's checking in with Orlando or maybe even trying to work things out.

"Oops, phone," TJ softly mutters to himself, remembering that he's had his own cell phone off since the early part of the day. He reaches for it and turns it on, a little surprised when he sees that Orlando called him. After checking the time of the call, he frowns as he listens to the message.

"Man, I hope you're talking to him now, Shy," TJ murmurs, walking out of the room so he can eavesdrop on his friend. When he hears that Shy's actually talking to his friend Tom, he quickly retreats to the bedroom and calls Orlando back.
tj_ray: (little smile)
"TJ, can you and Jet finish up that job on Crestview by Friday?" TJ's Uncle Jim asks.

"I think Jet's out of town until next week."

Jim frowns. "Damn. I can't be there and you can't do it alone."

"Well, the stuff that still needs to be done isn't much, right? I know someone who'd be willing to help."



"I'd hate to impose on him."

"Not me. I bet he'd love the chance to lend a hand."

"Okay, but you've got to promise you'll actually get the work done and not smoke all day."

"I promise," TJ laughs.


Jul. 15th, 2011 01:10 pm
tj_ray: (squinting)
I've been called lazy, a homebody, and (once) worthless. Why? Because I'm not one of those guys who wants to race out into the world and see everything it has in store for me. Seriously, if I'd been put in charge of exploring the new world, we still wouldn't have any idea whether the earth was flat or not. I've got no wanderlust, no restlessness, no desire to scale any mountains or set foot where no one has before. The biggest adventure I ever want to go on is getting on the new roller coaster at Six Flags New England.
tj_ray: (black and white)
I'm not sure if I have any real ambition. It's not that I'm lazy, I'm just satisfied with what I have. I've got money from an airline settlement (after my parents' plane crashed), so I have that to spend when I need it. I've got a job working for my uncle installing kitchens and bathrooms. I live with my aunt and uncle and am thinking about renting my own place. I guess that's a teeny ambition, but other than that, I'm pretty good. Actually, I'm always on the lookout for primo weed, but I'm not sure what to call that.
tj_ray: (Default)
The nights when he couldn't sleep were the hardest. His brain wouldn't shut off all the anxiety, fear and grief. Those were the nights he thought about how much he missed his mom and dad and how horrible it must have been for them and all those other people when they knew the plane was going down. That was when he worried that he wouldn't do anything meaningful with his life to make his parents proud. Mostly, that was the time he wondered how he was going to die and whether or not anyone would care when he was gone.
tj_ray: (little smile)
"I don't have to outrun the bear, I just have to outrun you."

I know I'm not supposed to be literal about this, but I had a friend who actually said this to me once when we went camping. At the time I thought it was pretty damn funny. Especially since I know that if we ever found ourselves facing down a bear, I'd be the one to leave his ass behind in a heartbeat since he's a lot slower and a lot heavier than me. The irony is his name is Jet but it should be something like Tank. Anyway, to tie it all into this determination thing, if I'd known then what I know now, I would have really wished for that jerk to get eaten by a bear.

I used to have a girlfriend. She broke up with me for a couple of reasons, but one was because I refused to spend a lot of money on her. She called me cheap and every name in the book just because I have some money from a settlement and I'd rather save it for my future than waste it on her. After she dumped me, she started going out with the same friend I was just talking about. He used to be my best friend but that changed when he decided to date the same girl he couldn't stand when she was with me. I figured out he had been jealous that whole time and I decided I didn't need that kind of backstabber in my life. Anyway, between the both of them screwing me over, I've pretty much made it my life's goal to be as successful as I can. Me and Jet both work for my uncle, but I've been doing everything I can to stand out and do everything just a bit better than him. Sometimes I'll even leave Jet hanging out to dry when in the past I would have helped him, then I sit back and laugh when my uncle lays into him. I know it's kind of a crappy thing to do to someone who used to be a good friend, but for now, I'm just gonna keep on outrunning him when I can. It makes me feel better.
tj_ray: (little smile)
"Music is a higher revelation than philosophy."

I'm not really sure if I'm understanding this right, but to me this means that music is IT, man. I know I can get a hell of a lot more out of playing the riff from "Whole Lotta Love" than I can reading some book about the meaning of life. The right song (or melody, if I'm gonna get fancy) can really affect you, and sometimes if I'm high enough and the music's awesome enough, I swear I can see God or whoever the hell is running this show. Sounds weird, I know, and if you don't get it, I guess I can't explain it. All I know is when you live in a shitty little town and you don't have many options for what to do with your life, music's one of the best ways to escape the gray and feel like you're alive.
tj_ray: (little smile)
With the year almost half over, I thought I'd do a little self eval and see what I've gotten done so far. I never make new year's resolutions in January, but I do try to think of things I want to do or how I want to try and be a better person. This year I decided that I wanted to be a better boyfriend and I wanted to volunteer at the local homeless shelter. I managed to do one of those things. I do whatever maintenance needs to be done for the shelter and even help them with some of the cooking when I have the chance. I really love it. Everyone who works there is pretty laid back and a lot of fun to hang out with. There's only one guy - Ted - who's a real asshole, but I'm still trying to get along with him. Luckily, he's only there a couple of times a week, so when I get called out to help, most of the time I don't see him. But I sure do hear a lot of stories about him. That's stuff for another entry, though.

So, I've been doing well with one of my new year's "resolutions." As for the other one... Technically, it's not my fault that I haven't been a better boyfriend. I was dumped a few weeks ago and it was because she suddenly decided that she didn't like the fact I was into guys. She knew that when we started dating - even told me it kind of turned her on - but it just happened to be an issue when she met a good friend of mine who moved back to town. It wasn't an issue because she thought there was anything up with me and Jet. It was an issue because she wanted to hook up with him. But the excuse she gave me was that she wasn't really all that comfortable with me liking guys. It hurts that she's lying about that, but I've got to move on. I just wish I hadn't lost a good friend out of the whole thing, too. And I get to see them around town all the time together. Not fun.

The good news? I still have the rest of the year to look forward to. I'm excited about getting to know the new people I've been meeting. I really do believe that things happen for a reason, so I'll try to look on the bright side of being dumped for a friend.
tj_ray: (lashes)
My mom died when I was 12 and I still have a hard time on her birthday and Mother's Day. Most days, I'm okay, but on those two days, I just feel kind of broken and like I just lost her. I can't help it. Father's Day and my dad's birthday makes me feel bad, too, but not the way this does. I don't have a mom and I really wish I did. I miss her so much.

I did give my aunt a card and present for today since she's been like a mom to me, but it's not the same. As much as I love her, she'll never know me or love me the way my mom did.

I'm really glad that I'm here on Shy's island so I can find some distractions. The dogs are hilarious and seem to know when to do something goofy to make me laugh. Plus, there's so much space out here to just walk and clear my head. In fact, I think I'm going to go do that now. I love it out here.
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