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Timothy James "TJ" Raymond ([personal profile] tj_ray) wrote2011-05-08 12:44 pm
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Mother's Day

My mom died when I was 12 and I still have a hard time on her birthday and Mother's Day. Most days, I'm okay, but on those two days, I just feel kind of broken and like I just lost her. I can't help it. Father's Day and my dad's birthday makes me feel bad, too, but not the way this does. I don't have a mom and I really wish I did. I miss her so much.

I did give my aunt a card and present for today since she's been like a mom to me, but it's not the same. As much as I love her, she'll never know me or love me the way my mom did.

I'm really glad that I'm here on Shy's island so I can find some distractions. The dogs are hilarious and seem to know when to do something goofy to make me laugh. Plus, there's so much space out here to just walk and clear my head. In fact, I think I'm going to go do that now. I love it out here.

[identity profile] orlandomuse.livejournal.com 2011-05-11 03:59 am (UTC)(link)
I was very close to my mum, but my dad died when I was four. I mostly remember him being sick. There was another man in my mum's life, but I prefer to pretend he never existed.

I've been separated from my mum for several years now. I miss her.

[identity profile] tj-ray.livejournal.com 2011-05-11 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Man, I'm sorry to hear that. I guess if there was a way for you to contact her, you would, right? So, I'm not even gonna ask if you can do that.

It really sucks to be without a mom, doesn't it?

[identity profile] tj-ray.livejournal.com 2011-05-12 08:15 pm (UTC)(link)
So how do you deal on those days when you just really want her there with you? Or just wish you could pick up the phone and talk to her?

[identity profile] orlandomuse.livejournal.com 2011-05-13 03:26 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes I call Will's mom.

[identity profile] tj-ray.livejournal.com 2011-05-14 07:58 pm (UTC)(link)
She's nice? Does that help?

[identity profile] orlandomuse.livejournal.com 2011-05-16 12:52 am (UTC)(link)
She's amazing. She adopts strays like me, and maybe you, too. *grin*

[identity profile] tj-ray.livejournal.com 2011-05-17 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Seriously? She sounds like a nice lady.

[identity profile] orlandomuse.livejournal.com 2011-05-18 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
She's the best. Outside of my real mum, of course!

[identity profile] tj-ray.livejournal.com 2011-05-18 08:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, no one is quite like your own mom. My aunt is really sweet and does her best, but sometimes I kind of know what a pain it was for her and my uncle to take me in. I miss that feeling of belonging no matter what, you know?

[identity profile] orlandomuse.livejournal.com 2011-05-19 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
Totally.